Sometimes I get frustrated. Especially when I try repeatedly to “get something”. I want it to sink in. I want to figure it out and here I am….back at square one?
Probably not, but so often it feels like it. I want to remember that every time I try, I learn a little something more and I get a little closer.
I want to remember. I want. I want.
Instead I decide to feel sorry for myself. I like to say things like “well if I had this, I’d be able to figure it out”.
Ha. Imagine that.
For instance imagine being a toddler and thinking…to yourself, “Well if I had a walker, I’d be able to figure out this walking thing”.
It isn’t how it works. There is a learning process and you start from scratch.
The more you stay present to the process the faster you learn. And each day is a blessing, an opportunity, and a chance.
To be present. What does this look like?
Taking responsibility means it is up to you. That is powerful.
Ending comparisons and what someone else has that you may not have means you get to design it for yourself. That is exciting.
Forgiving yourself when you get sidetracked or falter on the way means you are beginning to really LOVE. That is the point of life.
Meltdowns are par for the course on this path. At least they are for me. And then I get back here again and remember.
I want to live. I want to learn. I am.